Day 5 (March 6) I messed up the days.
I am awake, apparently I squeezed someone’s hand, but I have no idea what’s going on. I have a respirator in my throat which helps me breath, I have tubes coming out of my head that are draining the blood from my brain, I am unable to move, talk, and eat. I’m hallucinating, I see pink strings everywhere, they get into my mouth and get stuck in my throat. I think they are energy, I could watch them for hours they are soft and fuzzy and they sway to words and music. I also see people, they are always scary, they are watching me. No one else sees them my family walks to where they are and waves thier arms around to show me no one is there, but I don’t understand, because they were just there. I’m really confused, why can’t I figure out what’s going on? I think I’m still at my parent’s house, but it looks weird. And all the weird noises and smells, and it’s always so bright. Someone has the TV on and I hate when it’s on, it consumes my dreams, yea I dream I’m watching TV, it’s horrible, I like listening to music. It relaxes me I feel ok, I don’t have to think. Someone puts on country music and I love it, short stories done to music. Why can’t I communicate better.
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That must have been unbelievably frightening. I am in awe of your strength. Keep it up! Stay strong! You're an inspiration!!
ReplyDeleteCourtney
You are our treasure!!!))) Your left hand will still be writing calligraphic handwriting, and legs will be able to dance break, certainly not at once but we believe in you.
ReplyDeleteAnd for me, when I see you here, you're a bright ray of sunshine! The most beautiful and beloved around the world girl. But your family are angels in the flesh, which protect and care for you, infinite thanks for your family and everyone who you support.
And you have an invisible guardian in us, Rikki take care of yourself, and that I wish your family a lot of patience, strength and great health.
Spasibo chto ti takaya silnaya (in Russian means: thank you for what you're so strong)
I just watched the video and it was amazing to see how far you have come in a short time. Please stay strong and you will see how fast you will recover. Remember your smile is treasured and I hope more people will follow you and support you.
ReplyDeleteJohn
hey sunshine ( : im just another biisexual 18 year old girl from new york but i think it will make you feel better to tell you my story.
ReplyDeletemy grandma since about march 2nd, 2010 was acting quite weird. she wore clothes to work she would never wear, she didnt answer anyones questions right and she was completely out of it. we ended up taking her to the emergency room and they gave her a cat scan on her brain... she ended up having a brain tumor and it was very big. she had a surgery that was successful but we still await results if it is cancer or not. today was her birthday, she turned 63.. she is doing very well talking, walking and understanding things. she getting back to her normal self again.
i pray for you and your fam. stay strongg babbiegirl! life throws shit like this at people for no reason sometimes but its up to you to be happy and hopeful. ALWAYS remember God is good! it would be cool to keep intouch by email, but if you cant i understand lol
wauw Rikki,dat is niet niks ,eng lijkt me,maar je hebt het doorstaan,dapper ,ow i dont now hou te writh it in Engels sorry
ReplyDelete, Alie
"wauw Rikki,dat is niet niks ,eng lijkt me,maar je hebt het doorstaan,dapper ,ow i dont now hou te writh it in Engels sorry
ReplyDelete, Alie"
let me translate that for you:
'Wow Rikki, that's quite something, seems really scary to me but you made it through, you're really brave'
And I totally agree with Alie!
Tess
Oh rikki,
ReplyDeletethat sounds pretty scary....you just put up a good fight and that really counts! You're so strong and brave. You were strong enough to get up and walk alone, even when you thought you couldn't...
We all believe in you and think you'll feel like a million dollars in a few months, but you have to be patient and so everyone else. Time heals all wounds. You've got everyone around you who loves you and will help to give the recovery a push :)
And you've got god and his angels around you, they will protect you ;)
I hope many many people will donate and help, I'm posting it at twitter (sunny2787 => my name there)
P.S.: I donated some euro's via paypal...ummm I mean dollars for you :) I hope that helps you a bit. And don't wonder about my last name it's kinda curious ;)
xoxo
Jess K.
Rikki~
ReplyDeleteI just read your story and I am so sorry for all you and your family have had to endure! You are a very strong person and I wish you every bit of continued recovery possible. You are doing great. I watched your interview and am so happy that you went to the hospital and were treated immediately.
Last June my stepfather was walking across the street carrying my then 2 year old daughter when a car struck them. My daughter flew out of his arms and landed on her head. She had 3 surgeries to remove her bone flaps and was in the hospital for close to 3 months.
She is still unable to walk, talk, eat by mouth, etc. Her recovery is a snail's pace, but it is heading in the right direction.
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family! Take care of yourself!
Love,
Jen